Different phases, different times, different movies. I find it useful to believe that I am an actor working through the scenes that I have been given. Often I do not know how the scene will end, I am not the director, I am the actor, whose role it is to do the best job I can with the people, the scenes and the costumes that I am given!Read More
I hate summer holidays. It’s not like I haven’t given them a try - for the past 20 summers I have been lugging kids and food and bags of towels around, hiding from the sun and trying to pretend that I am enjoying myself!
I used to love control - in fact, I immersed myself in it. I wanted to control everything & everyone.
I was exhausted! It didn’t work and I found myself constantly disappointed.
Over the past few years I have become very sure about what I need, and want, to control.Read More
I made an effort yesterday. I put on a surprise party for one of my very special friends. Nothing too huge - 40 people for a high tea - but it was an effort. It was a joy. It made me feel warm. It made him feel loved. It was worth every bit of effort that I put in.Read More
As a child I had a cousin who was a serial offender when it came to pooing in swimming pools.
I am not sure whether this was a reaction to being relaxed in the water or if he just found everyone else’s reaction incredibly funny.Read More
Her head is a theme park - it’s filled with adventures and ideas and wonder. The trouble is that it’s open 24 hours! It’s an exhausting, messed up, busy place that she wants to escape. She thinks her head is a problem- something that she could ‘get rid off’.Read More
After a crazy busy August I have spent the first 10 days of Spring feeling refreshed, renewed and raring to go. I have been spring cleaning, clearing clutter and rearranging everything that I come into contact with.
I have been evaluating all of the stuff in my world and whether or not it still serves me.Read More
Overwhelmed at how much I have on and overwhelmed at how much there is to do.
Feeling overwhelmed is like waking up under a large pile of rubble and knowing that you need to muster the energy to get yourself out.Read More
I've been thinking a lot about support this week
Last week I was able to support my friend in possibly the toughest week of her life. It feels good to help, to be there and to be a shoulder for someone to lean on. The reason that I was able to put everything aside and be there for my friend is because I have an amazing support network in place. I have people around me that help, hold and have me. They’ve got my back.Read More
‘Fitting in’ is a huge part of being human. Often we create stories around fitting in. These stories sometimes start with, “I’ve always been an outsider”, "I've never been in the cool group”, “I don’t see that I can add any value”, and the old chestnut “I have never felt good enough”. Every one of us has had to deal with these feelings. You are a smart, qualified adult and then, BAM, one drop in confidence and you become the scared, awkward kid you were at 13 years old.Read More
Thinking has become my favourite past time! And now, like all passionate people with a new hobby, I am aghast at why more people are not doing this thinking thing more often…
In all of the thinking that I have done in the past 5 years - my most profound thought is that…Read More
Change is everywhere right now. In the past three years I have personally undergone enormous change. Thirty six months ago I was working as a fashion editor, speaking at fashion events and styling women.Read More
When was the last time you did exactly what you wanted? Not what you had to do or what you should do but what you wanted to do?
Doing what others want all day and everyday builds resentment. We have been taught that doing what ‘we want’ is wrong. That it is selfish and not ok.Read More
How did December get here so fast?! Crazy how fast this year has gone. This year has been a big one - for me there has been a lot of work, a lot of stretching myself into new shapes and a lot of stress. So much of the stress is stuff I have no control over - when people around you are unwell, behave badly or go through large life changes - all we can do is cope the best that we can.Read More
Six years ago, I took my 8 year old daughter to the doctors concerned that she had lost weight, was incredibly grumpy and was eating and drinking a lot more than ever before. My doctor said she was probably just having a growth spurt and not to worry. As we walked out he said we could test her blood sugar levels you want. Tilly's blood sugars were 29.8. (A ‘normal’ persons blood sugars sit between 4 - 6). The nurse offered me a cup of tea and a hug - I still had no idea what this number meant and then the doctor suggested we call an ambulance! I had no idea what Type 1 diabetes was and asked the doctor how long this will last!Read More
Twice a year I take groups of women to China - They are shopping trips and many people confuse them for a week of blatant consumerism for spoilt,wealthy women. Wrong. So wrong.Read More
In the past 18 years of being a parent I have finally worked out what parenting actually is - it's an experiment! Sometimes throughly researched, sometimes intuitive, sometimes flying by the seat of my arse, thinking on the spot, kind of experiment!Read More
I have a wonderful friend called Rosie who I met a few weeks after she moved to NZ from Korea. Her English was very limited and we had hilarious conversations and a few games of charades to communicate when we first met.Read More
I was recently speaking to a woman who was really concerned about her daughter - she had very low self esteem and the mother was really worried about the fact that she was not able to do the things she wanted to do.Read More
Its my birthday this week - and I have finally reached a cross roads. I have been teetering on the edge for a while but now a decision has to be made!
The cross road that I have reached is whether to make the enormous effort to get fit and trim or officially put myself into the “fuck it - don’t care - I’m just going to enjoy being fat” category.Read More